Mental health is NOT a joke.

Yesterday night my brother, my uncle, a guest who we're paying host to and I were watching Bruce Willis' move Mercury Rising. The plot of the story revolves around an undercover NSA agent Art Jeffries trying to protect an autistic boy Simon Lynch, as he has deciphered the most powerful coding called Mercury. The movie is amazing, Miko Hughes' portrayal of the austisic was just amazing.

Anyways I'm getting off topic. Around halfway through the movie our guest says, "Wow that kid has some serious mental problems." and smirked. Umm excuse me but could you be more arrogant?! Words couldn't explain just how appalled and pissed off that statement made me! I hate how there is such a negative stigma connected to mental health. Grrr! Some people should seriously be educated about this. It's not enough to just know they exist. Stupid international teaching standards. >>" It's not all bad, just I believe that everyone around the world should actually learn about these things, rather then completely focusing on academics. It should be something that is accepted not tolerated. There's a difference.

"Good manners will often take people where neither money nor education can take them."

A Little Too Fast

Well the 6th week has already ended, and to be honest it still feels like I only got back from holidays. It's like the scene from the movie Baraka, where the old Shinto priest is taking one step at a time slowly, while all the people around are going about their daily lives and in contrast it seems as though the background is in fast forward. This is honestly what it feels like.

A downside to this fast moving time is the fact that I don't have any time to figure myself out. None at all. It's always homework homework homework and stress about assessments. I just want it all to just stop and wish time would just stand still for once. Just one minute to sit back and relax. *sigh*

Recent happenings include: My computer crashing (goodbye my beloved data and memories), My wallet being stolen (goodbye memories and ID cards T___T) and my parents not trusting me again and being a bitch to me for some odd reason, like WTF I didn't do anything this time but fucking STUDY!

Well I have my birthday to look forward to in about 4 days. Yipee! :)

"I try to make myself believe, that planet Earth turns, slowly..."
- Fireflies by Owl City

*Sigh*

Well I haven't posted to this blog in a little over 3 weeks. Wow, time sure does fly, but I'm not enjoying myself. Not one bit. Everyday of the past 3 weeks have gone in a blur, as if my life's been fast forwarded not stopping one moment for relaxation. Why? Hmm...let's see, because of stupid year 11. As I have progressed into senior year my homework and assignments seems to come ten times faster than in the junior years. It's so difficult to keep up anymore. T______T I spent my whole Valentine's day doing Biology assignment. Even though I may not have had anything special on Valentine's day I still want to relax without having to worry about how much work is going to build up.

That's not my only problem these days. I also have a problem with my emotions. They've been going up and down like I have bi-polar or something. And I'm still trying to deal with my ex. Ha! You know what I've realised? Us being broken up isn't really different to when we were dating. Why..? Because he doesn't make the attempt of actually trying to communicate with me, just like our dating days. I recall that when we did end things, he said "We can still remain friends." Friends..? Really..? I guess that was something you just said to get my hopes up that I'll still stay in touch with you. Don't get me wrong I'm not asking that he talks to me 24/7 but the occasional "Hello" and "How are you?" but I don't even get that. I've attempted to hold a conversation with him a few times, but my attempts were futile. They didn't last past "I'm good...lol" =="

It's not just this but I am SO CONFUSED. Like ... grrr .. I don't know how to explain this. I don't even feel the butterflies anymore, not for anyone...Why did I have to love him? T___T

"Do I still have the butterflies you once gave me, or did they die with my ability to love?"

Great Scot!

After last night's match against world number 1 Roger Federer, Andy Murray lost the Australian Opens finals. The three set match was a very tight one, however Federer claimed victory in the end. First set was claimed easily by Federer along with the second, though Murray held a strong fight in the second. The third set was the nail-biter. Murray came back with a 5-3 lead until Federer also stepped up his game and took the set to a tie-breaker. It was here that Federer claimed his victory and redeemed himself from last year's failure. I was happy to see Federer win, however it saddens me that Britain hasn't won a single grandslam since 1936 and had their hopes crushed as Murray lost this match. Better luck next time I guess. :/

Tennis Update

I watched the match between Andy Murray and Rafael Nadal like any devoted fan and jumped for joy when Murray claimed victory. The dissapointing thing about the match is that Rafa had to forfeit the match because of a knee injury. I was really expecting 5 Set battle. :( Even though Rafa retired I have no doubts that Murray would've won the match anyways! :D

After defeating Rafa in the quater finals, Murray went on to defeat Marin Čilić of Croatia in a 3 set win to 1 set. Therefore Murray is now through to the finals.

Roger Federer versed the much loved frenchman Jo Wilfred Tsonga in straight sets and is through to the final.

This means the match that I have anticipated since the beginning of this year's Tennis season is actually happening! YES!!!! It's like an early Christmas present... kind of.

Well Roger Federer will be versing Andy Murray in a few minutes so I'm off.

Laters.