The Age Old Battle

Twilight. Today the word and creation that has shamed Generation Y, us. But is it really a shame? Or is it just useless hate that started off small, but spread uncontrollably?

If I recall correctly, before the movie came out those who didn’t read the series were shamed because it was thought to be second to the Bible (mind my blasphemy), and in order for most people to fit in they forced themselves to sit and read through three books about a girl who falls in love with a shiny, sparkly vampire and there they go through many teenage dilemmas including her unbelievable power to arouse other males and become vampire chow.

Twelve months before the movie came out the hype and tension created by the books was just unbelievable. It was even deemed a sensation. And every minute of every day, that tension seemed to rise just a notch higher. Disappointingly however once the movie did come out, it was just utterly and horridly.. well disappointing. Never had I watched a movie so terribly composed. Sure I have no talent in the creative arts department, but I’m sure the directing and acting could’ve been done a bit better. It didn’t do the books any justice.

So now I’m just thinking, are people only hating Twilight because of the movie? Because I can honestly admit that yes, Bella does continuously rave on about how much she loves and misses Edward and it’s annoying but it was a good read, mainly because it gave the readers an opportunity to escape to a fantasy of their own ideal Edward (Quote Bronwyn), and that image was only shattered by the way media chose to portray those characters (Kind of like how they ruined the Harry Potter series as a whole). But nonetheless a good read.

I’m not a huge fan of the movies, I do get hyped when they come out and must see them, but it honestly does not do the series any justice. The Harry Potter books = PURE AWESOMENESS that you can read 20+ times and still not get bored. :) So to whoever out there that hates Harry Potter, seriously you can not hate something this great in literature!

Jealousy

It has the potential to creep up at the most unwanted times. Or just whenever possible. I’ve been jealous before, I’m human. I mean who hasn’t been? It taints the once stainless soul, and can potentially ruin them.

There may be many reasons for one’s jealousy, love, lust, money, etc… But mine is simplicity. I’m jealous how a person can express themselves so beautifully yet so simply, whereas I struggle to make sense of what I try to express. I’m jealous of how a person’s life can be so simple, where mine is entangled with so much lies.

My jealousy is, of course, my fault. I care too much. I care how people may judge me. I care how people percieve me. I don’t want to be this person. I don’t want to hide behind a facade to please everyone. Yet how can I break free of the comfort of my facade?

You Can Run All You Like.

Ever had that moment where no matter how much good you do and restraint you show, people just don't believe you? Yeah karma's a bitch like that. Ever since last December I promised myself.. no more boys. And I've kept good with that promise. Yet, if you don't burn and bury your evidence well enough, well let's just say there are people that are looking for them. Even if they didn't know what they were looking for.

That's just how life likes to fuck with you.

Parents and I were on a roll for months now, and this stupid piece of my past pops up and everything goes down the drain. I was this close. This close... And I had been a "good girl" too. Well I haven't jigged this whole year... yet.

Just fuck my life. I can't even look at my dad anymore. And my mum? God, it's just awkward being in her presence. I'm a slut to them, that's what I'll be for the rest of my life. No amount of academic achievement or money can redeem me from that. To top it off what they saw doesn't even fall under the "wow-holy-shit" factor. I hate having traditional parents.

Guess you can't really run from your past aye? The truth will reveal itself no matter what.

“A lie can travel halfway around the world while the truth is still putting on its shoes.”

- Mark Twain

God I love my sister. <3

Rain

Let the rain kiss you. Let the rain beat upon your head with silver liquid drops. Let the rain sing you a lullaby.- Langston Hughes

I love the rain. I love it’s every little drop. I love the soft pitter-patter against my window. I love the fogged up glasses where I can write silly notes to myself. I love cosying up in bed with a good book and have the rain pouring outside. Oh rain you bring me much joy.

Like joy, it feels like I’m starting to get a grip of myself once more. I still hate school, but I’m not half as sulky as I was at the beginning of the year. I feel refreshed; renewed almost. Lately I’ve been spending time reconnecting with my inner bookworm and have, horray, taken up reading once more. It eludes me why I stopped in the beginning. Currently I’m reading Gabrielle Zevin’s “Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac”. I have to admit, while not the best read it is quiet captivating, it keeps me coming back for more. The characters are a bit cliche and so is the setting, but eh. I hear that Japan is releasing a movie for this book, which is set to release on September 10th this year. (Bet you’re proud of me Anvi, since I remembered).

Today was a good day. It was fun. It was light. Though Cat wanted me to jig, and I kinda wanted to, I didn’t. And I’m proud of myself for not falling back into my old habits. Though I wouldn’t mind a day off here and there. Considering it was raining today sport was cancelled so we had to spend the day at school doing, basically, nothing. Considering we’d be doing random stuff we took the opportunity to play Hearts, and I admit it was AWESOME and FUN! I won! Hehe. I not only won the glory, but I won a orange lolly and a keychain! WOOT!

Some notable quotes of the day:

• “Paul Sir McCartney” - Andrea
• “You don’t trout.. I mean you don’t my custing… I mean you don’t trust my counting.” - Anna aka Bunny