*Sigh*

Well I haven't posted to this blog in a little over 3 weeks. Wow, time sure does fly, but I'm not enjoying myself. Not one bit. Everyday of the past 3 weeks have gone in a blur, as if my life's been fast forwarded not stopping one moment for relaxation. Why? Hmm...let's see, because of stupid year 11. As I have progressed into senior year my homework and assignments seems to come ten times faster than in the junior years. It's so difficult to keep up anymore. T______T I spent my whole Valentine's day doing Biology assignment. Even though I may not have had anything special on Valentine's day I still want to relax without having to worry about how much work is going to build up.

That's not my only problem these days. I also have a problem with my emotions. They've been going up and down like I have bi-polar or something. And I'm still trying to deal with my ex. Ha! You know what I've realised? Us being broken up isn't really different to when we were dating. Why..? Because he doesn't make the attempt of actually trying to communicate with me, just like our dating days. I recall that when we did end things, he said "We can still remain friends." Friends..? Really..? I guess that was something you just said to get my hopes up that I'll still stay in touch with you. Don't get me wrong I'm not asking that he talks to me 24/7 but the occasional "Hello" and "How are you?" but I don't even get that. I've attempted to hold a conversation with him a few times, but my attempts were futile. They didn't last past "I'm good...lol" =="

It's not just this but I am SO CONFUSED. Like ... grrr .. I don't know how to explain this. I don't even feel the butterflies anymore, not for anyone...Why did I have to love him? T___T

"Do I still have the butterflies you once gave me, or did they die with my ability to love?"